2011 - Adios

2011 will end soon. For most of us, myself included, this year has been challenging, dramatic and full of roller coaster rides. But 2011 has also been a colourful year for me. So net-net, it was not too bad. Actually, not bad at all.

The events that we had gone through at the office has strengthen the friendships more than anyone could have imagined. We managed each other's frustrations. We hanged on to each other through challenging times. We went through rough days together. We laughed at each other's common jokes. We survived and we've grown into a stronger team in the process. And I am not complaining. Oh yes, not everything was sweet and pretty. There were ugly scenes in between, but hey...didn't I say it was colourful? We had people leaving the team, it was sad but we are happy for whichever path they chose. We had people joining the team and we welcomed them with our usual welcoming gestures and instantly  make them feel as part of our little family. This team is no doubt, the dream team.

As a person, I know I have made mistakes along the way and sometimes hurt the people I love most in my life. And there were times when I was too proud to admit them. I am far from perfect and I am sorry. As a human being, there were times when I closed one eye on other people's difficulty to satisfy my own wants and need. I was selfish and I am sorry.  Many times which I overspent thinking that I couldn't live without the stuff when I know many people around me are so unfortunate, they could use my money to eat. I was stupid, and I am terribly sorry.

I am not expecting 2012 to be a complete opposite of what I had gone through in 2011, but I hope 2012 will be lovely - make me a better mom to my son who listens to every words he is trying to tell me, a better wife to my husband who doesn't only hug and kiss him but also listens to everything that he has to say when he needs a support system, a better friend who makes time for her girlfriends and listens to their stories and most importantly, a better person with a better heart than before.

But in the mean time, I have 3 weeks before 2012 starts. I have deadline chasing me from all directions and I have an annual dinner to attend. So, before the year 2011 really ends, I shall have my fun like I always do, love the people around me and enjoy the rest of my roller coaster rides.

Signing off - nmn

Life goes on, but your past can sometimes says Hello

Have you ever encountered someone, who resembles a person that came into your past life, and reminds you so much of all the good times you had together? And you just can't stop looking at that person because it brings back so much sweet memories and some small naughty thought of you is hoping that that person is really him.

It's a weird feeling but it is also heartbreaking. But I'm guessing that is just a phase. And those people that came temporarily into your life just make life more colourful. People who are permanently part of you life now who matters most.

Ah well.... I can never turn back the past and unscrew what I have screwed before. It's probably going to make things more complicated that it was back then.

Signing off - nmn